Don’t kid yourself into thinking you’re marginalised or that you’re a victim, you’re an equal to everybody else. Before I realised this very key fact I would view myself in terms of my marginalisation and even now sometimes it is a struggle to see people for their parts instead of their labels.
The entire concept of The Controversy, of making my words so big, blasting and broadcasting how “Muslim” I am is so, so incredibly tongue-in-cheek. I know I’m your equal, and I feel like the blog is the response the media wants from Muslims (that we are not terrorists, and we are hurt by your accusations) but DUDE.
Firstly, okay. Yes, it’s true. I am not a terrorist, and I am offended by your accusations. Yes, whenever something Islamophobic tends to happen there’s always a response of #TerrorismHasNoReligion and #NotinMyName. Yes, I back that response 100% because I feel like it has been so educative in the past and with recent events even more so, to the point of excess…
Trust me, I’m writing this in the middle of exam season frenzy, and although we are not terrorists and are hurt by your accusations…
WE, UNDENIABLY, HAVE BIGGER FISH TO FRY.
There. I said it.
Not everything is about how Islamophobic it is. I am not always a victim. In fact I am never a victim. I may have only experienced one single direct act of racism in my entire life. The rest is completely indirect, lurking in the background, and fully in all the goddamn headlines!
Yet I could care less. It saddens me whenever something discriminatory is exposed or when people base their assumptions of a huge chunk of people from news headlines, yes. But I am equally as ignorant on so many topics, and that saddens me quite a bit too. Regardless I get on with my life (which honestly just consists of waking up, eating, studying, more studying, eating and then sleeping), and none of this really affects me in as big a way as I may make it out to be.
You see, this dude did an incredible project on the Ukraine crisis because the media, for him, depicted this crisis like it would be the end of the world…or at least lead to full out total war. (Spoiler alert: as of this date the Ukraine crisis hasn’t led to full out total war).
And the media does shit like that, I should know, I’m Muslim.
People shove their two cents every which way when it comes to that aspect of my identity.
But I am also woman, poor, person of colour, intelligent, sometimes crude, and definitely have a bigger voice on the internet.
And any of those aspects, considered separately from the rest of myself, will seem warped beyond recognition. Every aspect of myself is scrutinised in relation to myself.
Before everything I am myself, and that is perhaps the most contraversial thing: that words, the media, even books upon books, can never describe me, depict me to you as completely as I am.
You will never be so knowledgeable.
I am here. And I am your equal.
Get a bloody grip.
Ta, folks *drops mic*